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lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (11:47:17 AM): Hey
cruelhybrid (11:47:18 AM): Hi sweet heart
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (11:47:30 AM): sorry that took so long
cruelhybrid (11:47:39 AM): its ok
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (11:47:43 AM): internet wasn’t working so I had to reboot
cruelhybrid (11:47:58 AM): ahh
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (11:48:02 AM): I wasn’t expecting you to be up so soon
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (11:48:23 AM): Steven called and woke me up – so I thought I’d text you
cruelhybrid (11:48:36 AM): yeah i cant really sleep in that late
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (11:48:43 AM): ah
cruelhybrid (11:49:02 AM): did he usually call this much before i came around
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (11:49:21 AM): He started calling more often right before you came around
cruelhybrid (11:49:44 AM): ok
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (11:49:56 AM): but I think part of it is knowing that I’ve been hanging out with you and he wants to know what happened the night before
cruelhybrid (11:50:22 AM): last night or before that
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (11:50:34 AM): he said he was happy to know that we’re seeing less of each other alone
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (11:50:38 AM): both
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (11:50:41 AM): and all
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (11:50:58 AM): anytime he knows I’m going out with you, he’s called the next day…
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (11:51:15 AM): can’t blame him – obviously, he has something to worry about
cruelhybrid (11:51:33 AM): well yeah
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (11:51:49 AM): but he just doesn’t know it’s happened already
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (11:52:08 AM): it’s a little harder to talk to him now
cruelhybrid (11:52:17 AM): he could have had it on his terms
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (11:52:34 AM): yeah
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (11:52:44 AM): but, he won’t find out, so it doesn’t matter
cruelhybrid (11:52:50 AM): true
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (11:52:59 AM): hopefully, there will be permission later and it won’t matter anyway
cruelhybrid (11:53:04 AM): yeah
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (11:53:16 AM): if not – then …
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (11:53:27 AM): sneaking around will be annoying but doable
cruelhybrid (11:53:47 AM): I was hoping you would say that
cruelhybrid (11:54:09 AM): but would understand if you didnt want to after the fact
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (11:54:20 AM): I was just going to say
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (11:54:26 AM): something along the lines of
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (11:54:42 AM): not knowing if I will feel the same way after he leaves again
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (11:54:46 AM): funny
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (11:54:55 AM): there we go again, thinking the same things
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (11:54:56 AM): 
cruelhybrid (11:55:00 AM):
cruelhybrid (11:55:47 AM): it kinda sux tho
cruelhybrid (11:55:52 AM): for me
cruelhybrid (11:56:14 AM): at the wedding im sure relative will be asking if i have a GF yet
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (11:56:20 AM): I know, honey
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (11:56:22 AM): I’m sorry
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (11:56:24 AM): 
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (11:56:29 AM): I do think about that
cruelhybrid (11:56:30 AM): I want to say yes
cruelhybrid (11:56:38 AM): but cant
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (11:56:45 AM): and I sometimes think that this is a bad idea for you
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (11:57:01 AM): you’re already feeling the effects of this whole thing
cruelhybrid (11:57:14 AM): well so are you
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (11:57:22 AM): and, as repeated over and over – I don’t want to hurt you
cruelhybrid (11:57:25 AM): and you have alot more to lose
cruelhybrid (11:57:41 AM): and I love you for that
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (11:57:49 AM): yeah – but if I don’t lose it, then you have made all the sacrifices
cruelhybrid (11:58:10 AM): but I look at it this way
cruelhybrid (11:58:26 AM): IT WAS WORTH IT
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (11:58:41 AM): it was, or is?
cruelhybrid (11:58:58 AM): is right now
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (11:59:02 AM): ok
cruelhybrid (11:59:11 AM): i was talking about in the future
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (11:59:16 AM): ah
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (11:59:18 AM): I see
cruelhybrid (11:59:19 AM): pretense
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (11:59:24 AM): I want you here
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (11:59:26 AM): now
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (11:59:40 AM): if only I lived alone
cruelhybrid (11:59:47 AM): same here
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (11:59:58 AM): I also need to find out if Matt is really doing this camping trip
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:00:10 PM): that’ll throw a curve ball in some plans
cruelhybrid (12:00:20 PM): we he said he didnt know my heart sank
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:00:32 PM): yeah – we’ll see
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:00:49 PM): he moved the camping trip a couple of times, but I thought things were in line now
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:00:52 PM): we’ll see
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:01:00 PM): he’ll talk to me about it sooner or later
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:01:04 PM): he knows I can’t go
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:01:12 PM): due to plans on Saturday
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:01:16 PM): Oh – the parties
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:01:21 PM): not sure what’s happening
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:01:41 PM): the party I thought was in the afternoon is actually starting at 8pm
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:01:54 PM): and I’m not sure what time the Gilroy party is
cruelhybrid (12:02:15 PM): that does pose a problem
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:02:24 PM): I’m trying to make both of them -and you are more than welcome to join me to either one
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:02:37 PM): after you’re off work, of course – or if you can
cruelhybrid (12:02:54 PM): as soon as i find out me schedule i will let you know
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:03:09 PM): one is being put on by a work friend and the other is a mutual friend of mine and Stevens – so nothing can happen
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:03:13 PM): but it’s time, at least
cruelhybrid (12:03:23 PM): true
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:03:42 PM): I’m also hoping that if I feel comfortable hanging out with you in front of people at work and our friends, Steven will be at more ease
cruelhybrid (12:03:48 PM): maybe we can just say im gay or something
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:03:51 PM): he knows I can’t do anything that way
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:03:52 PM):
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:03:56 PM): people know
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:04:02 PM): Elisa knows you’re not
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:04:08 PM): and she knows your name
cruelhybrid (12:04:21 PM): well thats out the window
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:04:29 PM): nice try though
cruelhybrid (12:04:39 PM): which is fine i dont want to be gay
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:04:45 PM): I know
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:04:51 PM): you couldn’t act it if you tried
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:04:54 PM): anyway
cruelhybrid (12:05:04 PM): OH i could so pull it off
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:05:18 PM): not with me around, you couldn’t
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:05:20 PM): haha
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:05:21 PM):
cruelhybrid (12:05:34 PM): oh yeah forgot about that
cruelhybrid (12:05:36 PM): hehe
cruelhybrid (12:05:41 PM): 
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:06:11 PM): so – another thing I was thinking about –
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:06:27 PM): I think we need to keep from lying as much as possible
cruelhybrid (12:06:42 PM): about what we are doing
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:06:55 PM): lying can get us caught a lot quicker
cruelhybrid (12:07:06 PM): true
cruelhybrid (12:07:20 PM): but not if your clever about it
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:07:22 PM): obviously, that will need to be kept under wraps (what we’re doing)
cruelhybrid (12:07:37 PM): duh
cruelhybrid (12:07:40 PM): hehe
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:07:41 PM):
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:07:59 PM): but- as far as where we’re going and who we’re hanging out with
cruelhybrid (12:08:08 PM): yeah
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:08:32 PM): So – I’m trying to think of a better resolution for Wednesday – if it can be pulled off
cruelhybrid (12:08:58 PM): as opposed to not doing anything
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:09:11 PM): yes
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:09:24 PM): preferably, I’d like to at least see you
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:09:40 PM): but I don’t want to raise anymore eyebrows from Tim
cruelhybrid (12:09:41 PM): same here
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:09:46 PM): and I don’t want you lying
cruelhybrid (12:09:55 PM): oh well Ill just lie to him
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:09:59 PM): that’s up to you, of course
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:10:00 PM): ok
cruelhybrid (12:10:18 PM): if im clever about it it will be fine
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:10:34 PM): well – on my end, I don’t want to lie to Matt – he’s very quick at this stuff
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:10:49 PM): he kept his life such a secret that he knows all the tricks
cruelhybrid (12:10:54 PM): thats fine
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:11:18 PM): so – if you want, how about Family Guy night again? Here.
cruelhybrid (12:11:30 PM): yeah tim hasnt let on that he has any idea that you were there last night
cruelhybrid (12:11:34 PM): yeah
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:11:57 PM): I have the DVDs anyway and it’s a good standing “Friends hanging out with Friends” thing
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:12:04 PM): we can’t do much, but –
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:12:08 PM): it’s something
cruelhybrid (12:12:21 PM): it didnt stop us last time
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:12:25 PM): true
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:12:29 PM): it didn’t
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:12:44 PM): we’ll have to pick out another movie or something too
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:12:45 PM):
cruelhybrid (12:12:50 PM): yeah
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:13:11 PM): did you have fun last night?
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:13:24 PM): I’m sore
cruelhybrid (12:13:24 PM): yeah
cruelhybrid (12:13:31 PM): im not so much
cruelhybrid (12:13:51 PM): last sat prepared me i guess
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:13:55 PM): my legs, my feet (BAD shoes for as much walking we did),
cruelhybrid (12:14:02 PM): yeah
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:14:27 PM): not to mention, my body hadn’t been in the positions it were in yesterday in quite some time
cruelhybrid (12:14:33 PM): i would have piggy backed you
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:14:39 PM): so I’m sore EVERYWHERE!
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:14:40 PM): lol
cruelhybrid (12:14:53 PM): but that may or may not have looked bad
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:15:02 PM): true
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:15:32 PM): I could have jumped on Devin’s back – he’s always picking people up (as you experienced)
cruelhybrid (12:15:43 PM): yeah
cruelhybrid (12:15:59 PM): i was surprised to say the least
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:16:05 PM): at what?
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:16:09 PM): Devin?
cruelhybrid (12:16:29 PM): i havent been picked up like that since i was little
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:16:33 PM): haha
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:16:44 PM): he did that the first time I went out with them too
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:16:49 PM): he’s weird like that
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:16:53 PM): funny
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:17:13 PM): he also swung his body around a pole and fell on the sidewalk
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:17:21 PM): he does strange things
cruelhybrid (12:17:24 PM): i got so molested by a number of guys at dragon
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:17:28 PM): haha
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:17:35 PM): sorry, I wasn’t much of a screener
cruelhybrid (12:17:49 PM): MATT was one of them
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:17:52 PM): I did dance with you pretty much the whole time
cruelhybrid (12:17:53 PM): ur matt
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:17:54 PM): I know
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:17:58 PM): that was funny
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:18:14 PM): he was grabbing at me to turn around – I didn’t know what was going on for a second
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:18:19 PM): but it worked out
cruelhybrid (12:18:28 PM): dancing with you was why i had fun
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:18:33 PM): good
cruelhybrid (12:19:12 PM): devin chris and kal we all touchy feely with me as well
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:19:18 PM): I couldn’t imagine you being there with out me or another straight girl anyhow
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:19:20 PM): yeah
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:19:23 PM): they get that way
cruelhybrid (12:19:29 PM): i wouldnt be
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:19:34 PM): figured not
cruelhybrid (12:19:59 PM): and id only go witha really hot one at that;)
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:20:10 PM):
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:20:13 PM): thank you
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:20:26 PM): I wish we could have been closer to a window though
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:20:33 PM): it was WAY crowded
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:20:40 PM): and HOT
cruelhybrid (12:20:44 PM): yeah it was too damn hot in there
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:20:53 PM): but fun
cruelhybrid (12:21:11 PM): you were all sweatty and I liked that
cruelhybrid (12:21:20 PM): nice and smooth
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:21:45 PM): I was soaking wet – my shirt was still wet after Denny’s
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:21:51 PM): that’s why I was so cold
cruelhybrid (12:21:59 PM): ohhh
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:22:19 PM): you were nice and wet too!
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:22:23 PM): hard too
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:22:24 PM):
cruelhybrid (12:22:27 PM): yeah
cruelhybrid (12:22:31 PM):
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:22:57 PM): well – we’ll have Sat, Sun, Mon, Tues off from one another
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:23:07 PM): well, not off, but not seeing each other
cruelhybrid (12:23:07 PM):
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:23:13 PM): that should calm some people down
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:23:19 PM): I know, I’m sad too
cruelhybrid (12:23:26 PM): but i was thinking for mon
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:23:34 PM): Monday?
cruelhybrid (12:23:37 PM): if i work at 4
cruelhybrid (12:23:49 PM): we can have “lunch” again
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:24:01 PM): hmmmm – that may be doable
cruelhybrid (12:24:22 PM): tim should be at work by then so that should be a non-issue
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:24:36 PM): I’m going to the SF office in the morning – I can call you when I’m on my way back
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:24:41 PM): and we can meet at my house
cruelhybrid (12:24:45 PM): yeah
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:25:03 PM): hmmm – I’m getting excited just thinking about it
cruelhybrid (12:25:16 PM): me too
cruelhybrid (12:25:31 PM): hey matchbox20 is on right now
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:25:36 PM):
cruelhybrid (12:25:39 PM): real world
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:25:43 PM): ah
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:26:37 PM): I have a small headache
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:26:39 PM): not bad
cruelhybrid (12:26:53 PM): you drank too much:)
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:26:58 PM): what time do you need to leave?
cruelhybrid (12:27:23 PM): i need to be ready by around 2
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:27:27 PM): Me? Never!
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:27:30 PM): ok
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:27:46 PM): so, you have to go soon, huh?
cruelhybrid (12:27:50 PM): and i need to at least go to the bank and get a card
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:27:58 PM): ok
cruelhybrid (12:28:26 PM): ill do that at 1 tho
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:28:34 PM): ok
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:29:03 PM): it will be very strange to not have any contact with you
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:29:11 PM): not looking forward to that
cruelhybrid (12:29:29 PM): today
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:29:40 PM): no – when Steven is home
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:29:49 PM): besides the 7th
cruelhybrid (12:29:52 PM): oh yeah that
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:29:54 PM): of course
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:30:23 PM): there’s a whole week where I’m going to know you’re around and I can’t IM or anything
cruelhybrid (12:30:41 PM): oh jeez im going to die
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:30:49 PM): cold turkey – quitting John
cruelhybrid (12:31:21 PM): we just have to make the most of what time we have now
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:31:31 PM): yeah
cruelhybrid (12:31:47 PM): and see where we are after i get back from alaska
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:32:03 PM): yeah
cruelhybrid (12:32:07 PM): what date does steven leave
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:32:26 PM): who knows, you could meet some hot chick during that time…
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:33:19 PM): he leaves the 20th. I’ll be in Auburn the 21st and 22nd for my high school reunion
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:33:47 PM): then, I’m home again
cruelhybrid (12:34:10 PM): after you that may prove difficult to find someone as hot as you who isnt a bitch and doesnt have a BF
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:34:49 PM): we’ll see
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:35:00 PM): I don’t think it will be that difficult
cruelhybrid (12:35:36 PM): im not good at approaching random chicks
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:35:42 PM): well
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:35:51 PM): at the bbq on the 7th
cruelhybrid (12:35:52 PM): i usually get to know them first
cruelhybrid (12:36:02 PM): yeah?
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:36:13 PM): steven’s cousin, victoria, is 19
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:36:31 PM): my heart is sinking as I’m telling you this, but it’s for your own good
cruelhybrid (12:36:32 PM): /:)
cruelhybrid (12:36:48 PM): OUR own good
cruelhybrid (12:36:58 PM): we are in this together
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:37:01 PM): and she’s single (I believe) and gorgeous
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:37:09 PM): nope – just yours
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:37:31 PM): my heart is invested, right now, this would be for your own good
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:37:46 PM): it’ll be for mine when I get over it – if you two hit it off
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:37:52 PM): I’m not telling her anything though
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:37:58 PM): I don’t even really know her type
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:38:06 PM): but – that’s a possibility
cruelhybrid (12:38:14 PM): well see
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:38:19 PM): which means, no 3-some
cruelhybrid (12:38:40 PM):
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:38:47 PM): oh – and I believe she is a virgin – and her family is protective
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:38:55 PM): so – it may be difficult
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:39:00 PM): but she’s beautiful
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:39:02 PM): and sweet
cruelhybrid (12:39:03 PM): as far as they know she is
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:39:17 PM): no – she’s open with her sister
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:39:25 PM): and her sister and I talk all the time
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:39:28 PM): about things
cruelhybrid (12:39:38 PM): things huh?
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:39:42 PM): yeah
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:39:43 PM): things
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:39:50 PM): anyway – being selfish -
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:40:10 PM): I wasn’t sure I wanted to tell you anything and let you guys meet and see what happened
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:40:11 PM): but
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:40:17 PM): I’m doing too much as it is
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:40:20 PM): so
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:40:23 PM): there you go
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:40:32 PM): something for you to look forward to
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:40:48 PM): like I said, it will be hard to quit you
cruelhybrid (12:41:02 PM): it will be hard to get you out of my head
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:41:08 PM): doubt it
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:41:12 PM): not after seeing her
cruelhybrid (12:41:19 PM): i dont konw
cruelhybrid (12:41:24 PM): know*
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:41:29 PM): ok – I’m realizing how much I like you now
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:41:32 PM): so bad
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:43:02 PM): ok- your silence says to me that I’m scaring you-
cruelhybrid (12:43:09 PM): oh sorry
cruelhybrid (12:43:17 PM): i was just spacing
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:44:06 PM): this is embarrassing me –
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:44:13 PM): stupid
cruelhybrid (12:44:25 PM): it may be bad but its still nice to know someone cares about me
cruelhybrid (12:44:58 PM): and THAT is why this is all WORTH it
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:45:21 PM): well, I do, and it’s wrong, and I’m wanting you more and more
cruelhybrid (12:45:41 PM): dont down-play your own value your amazing
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:45:45 PM): and fucking crying right now and pissing myself off!
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:45:49 PM): jesus
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:46:26 PM): no – it’s nice you think so – but no – if I was, then – well, I wouldn’t be in this situation
cruelhybrid (12:46:26 PM): wow
cruelhybrid (12:46:45 PM): STOP THAT
cruelhybrid (12:46:55 PM): I FUCKING TOLD YOU TO STOP THAT
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:47:06 PM): fine
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:47:09 PM): stopped
cruelhybrid (12:47:52 PM): you are one of the most amazing people i know and stop trying to convince yourself that your not
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:48:04 PM): hey – you yelled at me /:)
cruelhybrid (12:48:19 PM): I would’nt say that if it wasnt true
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:48:25 PM): I know
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:48:28 PM): I know
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:48:29 PM): I know
cruelhybrid (12:48:37 PM): im sorry i yelled
cruelhybrid (12:48:52 PM): I just hate it when you beat yourself up
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:48:59 PM): no – it’s fine
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:49:02 PM): I’m not mad
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:49:12 PM): I actually thought it was cute – don’t get mad though
cruelhybrid (12:49:23 PM): im not mad
cruelhybrid (12:49:45 PM): i just cant stand it when you talk about yourself like that
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:49:53 PM): I’m sorry
cruelhybrid (12:50:05 PM): im trying to fix that remember
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:50:10 PM): Fact: I love you
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:50:16 PM): Fact: I don’t want to lose you
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:50:23 PM): Fact: This is all scaring me
cruelhybrid (12:50:43 PM): ‘if your gone’ by matchbox20 is on
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:50:51 PM): haha – nice
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:51:02 PM): good song for this moment
cruelhybrid (12:51:10 PM): yeah
cruelhybrid (12:51:24 PM): so you love me huh
cruelhybrid (12:51:35 PM): whice one is it tho?
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:51:52 PM): which one?
cruelhybrid (12:52:00 PM): which love
cruelhybrid (12:52:17 PM): love or IN love
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:52:22 PM): A very stong fondness – love – want to spend more and more time with you
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:52:40 PM): I want more of you
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:52:48 PM): not in love –
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:53:04 PM): at least, if I am, I’m not ready to admit it to myself
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:53:07 PM): so,
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:53:12 PM): there it is
cruelhybrid (12:53:25 PM): in that case then..
cruelhybrid (12:53:30 PM): I love you too
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:53:39 PM): I already knew that
cruelhybrid (12:53:52 PM):
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:54:45 PM): but not in love with me
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:54:47 PM): so –
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:55:07 PM): what happens IF (but IF) these feelings get stronger?
cruelhybrid (12:55:31 PM): that is what scares me
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:55:34 PM): but is supposed to be big
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:55:45 PM): hmmm
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:56:06 PM): Do you think we should stop now?
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:56:10 PM): I’m asking
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:56:16 PM): not saying I want to
cruelhybrid (12:56:34 PM): not until we are forced to
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:56:38 PM): you gotta go soon too – I know
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:56:58 PM): are you sure it’s worth it?
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:57:08 PM): there could be some serious heartbreak
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:57:10 PM): to come
cruelhybrid (12:57:16 PM): what do i have to do to convince you
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:57:17 PM): for both of us
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:57:25 PM): ok
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:57:26 PM): sorry
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:57:33 PM): I asked that a ton of times already
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:57:48 PM): Im not a very positive thinker sometimes
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:57:50 PM): sorry -
cruelhybrid (12:58:01 PM): this IS worth the price of my HEART
cruelhybrid (12:58:15 PM): for me anyway
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:58:37 PM): boy- that’s a high price
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:58:45 PM): and I’ll match ya
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:58:51 PM):
cruelhybrid (12:58:54 PM): and your worth EVERY penny
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:59:02 PM): omg
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:59:06 PM): you gotta quit that
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:59:18 PM): you’re going to make me fall in love with you right now!
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (12:59:22 PM):
cruelhybrid (12:59:39 PM): and dont forget that ok
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (1:00:02 PM): ok
cruelhybrid (1:00:18 PM): i just became breathless
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (1:00:29 PM): why?
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (1:00:45 PM): what happened?
cruelhybrid (1:01:01 PM): im not sure just yet
cruelhybrid (1:01:12 PM): but I may be IN love with you
cruelhybrid (1:01:31 PM): by heart is pounding
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (1:01:32 PM): but you said that would take a very long time
cruelhybrid (1:02:04 PM): stranger things have happened
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (1:02:18 PM): oh honey- this isn’t good
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (1:02:25 PM): I love it, but it isn’t good
cruelhybrid (1:02:33 PM): ok now you need to stop… hehe
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (1:02:47 PM): haha
cruelhybrid (1:02:51 PM): but dont
cruelhybrid (1:03:05 PM): ok im better now
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (1:03:20 PM): are you over being in love with me?
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (1:03:21 PM): haha
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (1:03:29 PM): that quickly? damn
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (1:03:30 PM): haha
cruelhybrid (1:03:34 PM): shut up
cruelhybrid (1:03:38 PM):
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (1:03:39 PM): haha
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (1:03:52 PM): man, oh man
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (1:03:54 PM): trouble
cruelhybrid (1:04:10 PM): i just need to see how that felt
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (1:04:25 PM): who woulda thought that this would come out of Stacy asking me to bowl with you two
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (1:04:30 PM): see how what felt
cruelhybrid (1:04:46 PM): saying that i MAY be In love with you
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (1:04:53 PM): ah
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (1:04:55 PM): and…
cruelhybrid (1:05:07 PM): well it felt great but….
cruelhybrid (1:05:15 PM): its not that time yet
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (1:05:22 PM): ok
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (1:05:25 PM): good to know
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (1:05:30 PM): infatuation still
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (1:05:32 PM): lust
cruelhybrid (1:05:37 PM): whoooooo that scared me
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (1:05:42 PM): strong like/love
cruelhybrid (1:05:48 PM): yeah
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (1:05:58 PM): why did it scare you?
cruelhybrid (1:06:32 PM): cuz thats farther then either of us bargained for
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (1:06:40 PM): yeah
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (1:06:54 PM): but it is always a possibility
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (1:07:01 PM): Steven was worried about this
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (1:07:05 PM): love triange
cruelhybrid (1:07:07 PM): at this point yes
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (1:07:09 PM): triangle
cruelhybrid (1:07:34 PM): haha i didnt even notice the L was missing
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (1:07:51 PM): which is why – every step of the way, I’ll be checking in to be sure this is all still worth it
cruelhybrid (1:08:20 PM): im going to tell you stop that cuz I wont change my mine ok
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (1:08:28 PM): ok
cruelhybrid (1:08:43 PM): it is better to have loved and lost then to have never loved at all
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (1:08:55 PM): ok – get all “lifetime” on me
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (1:09:00 PM): haha
cruelhybrid (1:09:18 PM): actually that i was quoting Men In Black
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (1:09:29 PM): Moulin Rouge too
cruelhybrid (1:09:38 PM): never saw that
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (1:09:43 PM): good movie!
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (1:09:56 PM): well – if you don’t mind singing and stuff
cruelhybrid (1:09:57 PM): but will smith said it to Tommy Lee Jones
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (1:10:07 PM): kind of like our little story
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (1:10:09 PM): actually
cruelhybrid (1:10:18 PM): okokokok
cruelhybrid (1:10:22 PM): i need to go
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (1:10:24 PM): ok
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (1:10:34 PM): bye, honey
cruelhybrid (1:10:44 PM): Ill call you if i can get a chance
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (1:10:47 PM): have a great time
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (1:10:50 PM): ok
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (1:10:53 PM): sounds good
cruelhybrid (1:11:00 PM): bye my lovely
lv4tigers@sbcglobal.net (1:11:08 PM):
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